Tuesday 18 December 2012

almost there

I think there's maybe just one person out there who reads this blog, and she has just given me a gentle nudge to come and update, so journey2dfuture, this is for you! And for anyone else at any time in the future who might be clutching at the straws of fertility treatments, scouring the internet for just one success story which speaks to them and their situation.

We are doing great, me and baby boy. I am 36 weeks and 2 days pregnant, and have recently travelled back to my home country to await his arrival. I sleep badly and have horrible heartburn, but apart from that I feel wonderful and am enjoying every day of my ninth month. I am ridiculously proud of my bump, overwhelmingly grateful that everything is so normal now in my pregnancy, incredibly happy that Mic and I will be parents very soon, and a teeny bit daunted of course by the thought of it all. Will I really be able to handle the lack of sleep? I think that's my biggest concern. When I imagine parenting a newborn, I picture myself handling all the other stuff ok - breastfeeding, nappies, crying, bathing, bonding - but I just can't imagine never sleeping for more than 2 hours at a stretch for months on end. I keep telling myself that everyone does it and most people seem to cope just fine, and it does calm me down. I'll be fine, right?

Mic is arriving on 2nd January, so little one has to stay put until then. I am really hoping he comes a bit early rather than late though...Mic can't take unlimited time off work and if baby boy decides to arrive 2 weeks late, his daddy will barely be able to say hello to him before he has to head home. Maybe if things are still looking stable at my next appointment (27th), I'll suggest he postpones coming by another few days. Hmmm....

Meantime I am chilling out at my mother's place, bit by bit preparing everything. I have bought pretty much everything I need for baby, started washing his clothes, arranged the cord blood collection, read all the books in the world on newborn care, etc etc. I am really enjoying the fact that I won't be going back to work for at least a year, and can put all my energy into this precious person. I know how lucky I am to be able to do that - to have a husband that can manage it financially and to have a job that loves me so much that they will take me back whenever I decide the time is right.

Honestly, I probably won't post another update until baby boy is born, so I hope my next post will be as a tired, proud, new mom!