IVF 11, or let's call it 2.3, so I can keep track of how many I have done for baby no.2. What can I say? Another failure. The new clinic said they don't like to give more than 6 x 75 IU Men.ogon per day, although on several previous cycles I have been on 8. Whether it made any difference I really don't know, but I only had 7 eggs, and only 5 were mature. It's a long way from the 16 I had got a couple of times before. Am I aging so fast? Only 3 fertilized, and by day 3 they were only 2, a 4-cell and a 2-cell. I went through a really hard couple of days after ET, I think it's the most I have cried since starting IVF. I don't know why. I'm just tired of it, and at that point I was totally ready to give up or go on to donor embryos.
But, as usual, I did bounce back within a few days, and although I knew it was going to be negative, I immediately started thinking about the next cycle. The day of the ET when my RE saw that I was upset, she said that if it didn't work we can maybe think about DHEA before the next cycle. It upset me even more at the time, it was like a confirmation that my age has suddenly become a major factor in our journey (I'm 39). But when I went back to her after the BFN, she wasn't particularly encouraging about DHEA, and said things vary from month to month and we might well have a better result in a different month without any intervention. She really put the ball in our court.
AF came on today, so we have to decide by tomorrow whether to do a back-to-back cycle or whether to wait. It comes down to cashflow basically. I'd prefer to do it, and I feel pretty strong and healthy right now and have been eating well and taking care of myself a lot better. I am at the stage, or rather the age, when I just hate hanging about and waiting for another month for no particular reason. If my fertility really is divebombing, we have to give our remaining 6 vials of sperm the best chance we can.
But, as usual, I did bounce back within a few days, and although I knew it was going to be negative, I immediately started thinking about the next cycle. The day of the ET when my RE saw that I was upset, she said that if it didn't work we can maybe think about DHEA before the next cycle. It upset me even more at the time, it was like a confirmation that my age has suddenly become a major factor in our journey (I'm 39). But when I went back to her after the BFN, she wasn't particularly encouraging about DHEA, and said things vary from month to month and we might well have a better result in a different month without any intervention. She really put the ball in our court.
AF came on today, so we have to decide by tomorrow whether to do a back-to-back cycle or whether to wait. It comes down to cashflow basically. I'd prefer to do it, and I feel pretty strong and healthy right now and have been eating well and taking care of myself a lot better. I am at the stage, or rather the age, when I just hate hanging about and waiting for another month for no particular reason. If my fertility really is divebombing, we have to give our remaining 6 vials of sperm the best chance we can.
